Just when all seems well, life slaps you in the face.

Ive came to my blog page many of times, with blank thoughts of words to share. Last i had posted anything was back when i started my new chemo and i was sharing my feelings upon it. Since then, there hasn't been much to say. Everything has seemed to be going well with my new drug. The day before thanksgiving was my second cycle. But today i got a phone call discussing my lab results.You see, the day before every chemo cycle I have to take blood work to show how my blood count is doing. I originally started out with my white blood cell count being 12 times more than what it SHOULD be. then it went down a little, then back up. Me being on a higher med form should no dought, be very effective on my Cancer by now. but its not. So now I am back to that first day i was told "EBONEY, YOU HAVE CANCER!". My doctor is now recommending me to take a PAT scan rather than a CT scan (a type of x-ray). and if my cancer is continuing not to go down, we have to stop all chemo and i have to get another biopsy surgery performed to see what type of cancer this really is that we are working with. When all seems just dandy in the neighborhood, along comes a bird that shits the biggest dropping on your life. Here i am, stressing off of getting all of my classes ready for school, planning a future for myself, and all along the thought of everything, I lose sight on the reality that I'm not even sure WHERE my life is going at this moment and time in life. Oh how the Lord is testing my faith.