LIFE IS TOO SHORT.......

Ive been having this crazy sharp cramp lately. seems like every time it comes, i have to stop everything I'm doing until it passes. Well any who. I have a lot on my mind, Since the whole "peritoneal cancer" thing, i cant help but to think of all the places I would love to go and the things I wish I should have done. Not saying that I'm going to die tomorrow or anything, but when you are faced with the possibility of death in life, you start to analyze things a lot differently. I have this guy friend, and he has pretty much been there, right by my side, throughout the whole "cancer" thing. Any feelings that I may have had in the past towards any man, is 10 times more for this friend of mine. To be in the state that I am in, makes me vulnerable. I mean every women has her insecurity's, but to have this friend of mine accept me with NO HAIR and low heath, WANTING to be there rather than feeling the need in HAVING to be there just means so much to me. I don't think words could even describe that feeling. So in my eyes, having death be so close of an option, I don't want to waste the rest of  my life regretting words or not acting upon actions. I have always lived my life on a short leash. Cautious of the moves I make, Picking, choosing and eliminating who I want to be involved in my life, Not taking enough risks or chances in fear of getting hurt by someone. But that is all of what living is. If you don't take the chance, how will you ever know?  It is easy to regret things that you have done, but harder to regret things that you HAVEN'T. So my good word to all you readers is: LIFE IS NEVER PROMISED TO US. LIVE IT AS IF TODAY IS YOUR LAST. NOT IN A "PARTY ALL NIGHT" TYPE OF WAY, BUT IN A "FEARLESS" "POSITIVE MANNER. DON'T JUST SIT AROUND TALKING ABOUT WHAT IT IS THAT YOU "WANT" TO DO....DO IT! FEELINGS THAT YOU MAY HAVE FOR SOMEONE, TELL THEM! YOU JUST NEVER KNOW. LIFE IS TRULY TOO SHORT.......