Day one after chemo

OK, so i guess there are some things on my mind today. Lets start with how my first day of "after day" chemo went for me.I woke up this morning, expecting to feel real shitty like, because of course, that's how i always feel after chemo. But i felt like my normal self today. Kinda took me off guard a bit, thinking it would catch up to me later. So I started my day by going to my friends studio to record a song. Still felt my normal self. I got home around 2 and it was ugly looking outside, and anytime its ugly out, i feel ugly inn. At these times a lot of emotions flow through my body. and its never about one thing. Its every little thing that I seem to always put behind me and hold in. Things I want to deal with at a different time. I play the cool, calm and collected role so much, that things really start to build up and get to me at times. straight up out of nowhere even. I become real defensive over the littlest things and moody as hell. I HATE when i act like that. So after refusing to stay in the house ALL BY MYSELF tonight,  I came to my cousin's house, which was a good idea because she had bible study. So that refreshed my spirits a lot. I still feel like my normal self. Missing my boo thang *smile* maybe i will talk more about him later on, depending on how things play themselves out. Just know that it really feels good to have a special person in your corner, willing to fight not only for you, but with you, during hard times like these.