a Bit off the tOpic (My cup Cake BloG) LoL

Lets get on a more personal level now. This is still involving my cancer condition, but its on a more positive, ROMANTIC note. About a month before I found out I had cancer, I was in a relationship with this guy. BOOOOOO!!! (could have done without him Considering he was a cheater at that.)>>>>ANY WAYS<<<<after being with someone for two years (good or bad) you miss that feeling of having them there. How do I describe it? You just really want that support system, the feeling of being NEEDED by your partner. Just knowing that they are there, even if it's just to argue. HA! Well, i didn't want what was offered to me. I needed more then that. So we broke up on bad terms because of all the lying, cheating a denying. Not too long after the ugly break up, I found out about the cancer. OH JOY!!! MORE DRAMA TO ADD TO MY LIFE. That was the one time I actually "wanted" him around, because as much as people were there for me, supporting me, I still felt alone.  It was kind of depressing at first, But everyone knows how much of a BEAST I am, so I sucked it up and went on with life. ABOUT A MONTH LATER....An old  friend of mine came into my life and gave me some unexpected feelings, that were long overdue. I believe I was LOOKING for something that WASN'T there in my last relationship. But with this "old friend" of mine, I was looking for NOTHING and came upon EVERYTHING. Now- I'm not the corny type by far, and I can read a phony nigga on his best day, but this old friend of mine was REAL. And "REAL" recognise "REAL" off top. To be in a situation like mines in life, It comes with a lot of "worries" and "what ifs". But Everyday that I spent with this "old friend" of mine had erased any concerns I may have had. With me being OBSESSED with my hair and no longer having any, He made me still feel beautiful and dominant. Any other day, I'm dodging the idea of walking outside with a scarf on my head. But while chilling with him, i would forget all about it. He not only lets me know that he wants to be there for me, but he SHOWS me as well. and a man of action is a powerful thing. POW!!!!! I can have a million people be there for me, supporting me, but I don't believe that they can amount to the feeling that this old friend of mine shares with me. (Sorry y'all, I still love you and appreciate each and everyone of you *SMILE*) To my OLD FRIEND: "thank you" for being so supportive of me and having my back the way you do. (you know who you are) I'M OUT LIKE A BURNT LIGHT BULB-YEEEEE!!!!